Monday, February 6, 2012

Getting back into the swing of things

Today is a month since my younger brother David passed. He was 39 years old and died of a heart attack, the day I last posted here. A tragedy and a waste. He was funny, smart and loving.
Happy times on the beach with our Mother

Last weekend Tommy and I travelled to the UK for his funeral. We arrived on Saturday, David's 40th birthday. We visited with him in the Chapel of Rest. I cried to see my baby brother's purple lips, they'll never smile again.

The funeral brought familiar faces. Family I hadn't seen since the last funeral (I guess we've reached that stage of life) and friends I hadn't seen in the 25 years since I left our hometown. David's schoolfriends that we knew as 4 year-olds together, never changed, laughing and telling stories of outrageous childhood deeds.

David and I, ages 19 and 21

The past month has been difficult, heart-wrenching and spent in a brain-fog which has seen me, metaphorically, staring blankly out the window, just cruising through the tasks of daily life.

My knitting has been slow and contemplative. A pair of socks, "hexipuffs" and dishcloths. A thought with each stitch, slow and steady.

Now, I am getting back in the swing of things at home. Leaving my house to shop, exercise, do my school PTO duties and visit with friends. As they say, life goes on......

8 comments:

Caroline said...

I'm so sorry for your loss.

Kaye said...

Oh Debs, there are no words. Big hugs!

Zonda said...

((hugs)) Been thinking of you! So sorry your visit home was for this reason. Take care!

oneofestelles said...

I'm been thinking about you. I'm glad to hear that you're working your way through the fog. (A condition that I totally identify with. I think of grief a bit like the flu.) I hope we'll see you soon at knit night -- no pressure.

Rachel

Anonymous said...

Please take very good care of yourself. Treat yourself gently, your doing so well.

IrishGirlieKnits said...

One day at a time. What lovely pictures of you both. Keeping you in my thoughts dear Disco. (((hugs)))

Jo Lakey said...

I'm so sorry - what a tragic loss. I'm send you all our love and hugs.

Kris_knittingmonster said...

I'm so sorry to hear your terrible news. Remember that you will always have wonderful memories and that time will fade the hurt. Sending hugs your way!!!